Dominant drugs: Humans and Separation

 At times goodbyes are not necessarily needed. Yet at times we wish for that one last conversation, one last proper closure. To know what could have been done or why this ended the way it was never meant to.

 Memories have a strong impact on us. Memories are something we live for or live with. People become your habit, a part of your routine, and have that fixed time slot in your daily life. They become a part of you. And when you're in love it makes sense. They cross your mind now and then. You come across their favorite song or a phrase they use or the food they love, everything makes you feel connected to your love.

 And as they leave somewhere it creates a void inside your heart. The soul which had this habit of constantly relating to things and making the other the topmost priority. And suddenly, out of the blues this separation strikes making you go all numb. The body suffers through serious withdrawal symptoms, as such in the case of drugs or alcohol. Humans too are the strongest drugs. They leave us miserable. They are miserable. 

And I think when it comes to love 

You can never really unlove someone. 

Even the hate is on level 10 on the scale but somewhere there is this, a tiny part inside you that still belongs to the one that left, with the one you once loved. It carries all the memories, laughter, tears, moments, and everything deep within. Then when you see them after ages or days or months that cover over the parts slightly tears up and everything starts accumulating within and then you are back on the track.

I feel that there is a strong difference between loving someone and loving the idea of being with someone. And we often confuse it with love. So did I. And I was the one who loved. And still do. Just a matter of acceptance.

-S. Aishwarya