Please Don't Touch Me.

I was not in my senses, too sleepy and  tired after a hectic day.

He touched me where he should have never done.

I trusted him as I trusted every men around, I thought he would never let me get hurt but he himself did.

He has left me in biggest discomfort. I become concious when my father cups my shoulder and these are the scars he left behind. Pieces of my faith are now so minute & scattered everywhere that it's hard to get them into place.

Masculine hands all around the wrist that the hands could barely move in defence. Screams silenced by the pain and the body in control of someone else. After this happens, heart feels to cry, to scream, to get out of the pain but remains silent, sobbing for whole life deep inside. Waking up now and then in middle of nights feeling someone is there looking, right inside you, touching without approval. Living in soreness for the rest of the existence or quitting it !

Yes, these are some impacts on someone's life left when they are physically abused.

She told her mother & she shushhhed her saying "Yeh toh har ladki ke saath hota hai".

My question is 'why? why this happens with every girl out there? Is it some kind of culture which needs to be carried and practised and without which our community is not complete ?' 'Don't talk about it to anyone else. It would affect our reputation, dignity in the society'. 'Ladki ghar ki izzat hoti hai (A girl is the pride of a family)', aren't your boys supposed to respect the pride of every family, pride of the country , the whole society, 'afterall they are the future of the family, of the society then why not here?'

A 'prostitute' was a simple girl like you , or maybe your sister, but some sexual greeds got her there where she was never supposed to be. She is forced all day , every night.

Yes, call it a RAPE. Don't hesitate to say that when you felt 'manly' doing so. Someone else suffers because of someone else's eroticism. 

When a case is filed against sexual abuse , the verdict we come to hear is "The next hearing will be held on ..." Why a next hearing when all the evidences are against delinquent, when the victim died fighting for life ? Why the culprit is given a chance to prove himself inculpable ?

Such verdicts that we hear give courage to the wrong doers, even after committing such a shameful crime these same culprits are seen valorous cause they would definitely be given a chance to prove themselves innocent.

At last please don't do this to us.

-Rashi Jain